The Linger Longer Express.
Watching the "top chef" award be created during the show at Thanksgiving brunch.
Our Christmas craft via Pinterest. Just added the green square background and gave them to teachers, school mates and friends. They made precious bag tags and additions to wrapped gifts.
And we ended the month of January by celebrating our precious Livy's 4th birthday. It hurts my heart each time I try to imagine her as a four year old little girl and can't come up with a mental image. I am missing so much. Sometimes the days here missing her seem drag on for eternity, then I look up and yet another year has past. In some ways our wounds are still as fresh and raw as the first day without her and in other ways we are resolute, soaking in every happy, not-so-happy, ordinary, and extraordinary moment with our boys while always striving to let her light shine through us and on us.
We sent balloons to her in heaven again and each of us had our own balloon to write a personal message to her. Parrish had just learned a new knock, knock joke so he wrote it out for her on his balloon, drew a picture of Jesus and Livy, and wrote that Knox loves her too.
We lit her candles and sang at her grave-side and per Parrish's instructions, left a piece of cake there for her. These moments are always so gut wrenching, but it warms my heart that he is so brave, so strong, so loving and sure. I am so proud of him. He has endured loosing his sissy but never forgets her. They had a special bond that can never be broken and she lives in his heart just as she lives in ours...forever.
A birthday tulip for our Livy.
The pink sky as we left the cemetery that night. We felt her there with us.
It is so easy to think that we were created for our own happiness and to get down when things don't go our way in this life. But when I keep this in mind I find it easier to make it through each day-some of them filled with joy, and others filled with pain-in this life which is really but a wisp. James 4:14