Saturday, January 29

:: The beach & a new friend ::

As I was watching this sunset at the beach I couldn't help but think about Olivia. She's up there somewhere beyond the clouds. Every time I feel a warm ray of sunshine or hear our wind chime I feel her presence. As Parrish said to me yesterday, she is always in our hearts.

My friend Shannon wrote a beautiful poem for us called "Olivia's Light." It came to mind so many times at the beach.

Olivia's Light

Oh, little one
Come and share your light
Shine down from heaven above

What joy to behold
A beacon so bright
A symbol of God's own love

Oh, beautiful star
Such a brilliant sight
Like sunshine in the rain

A love so strong
That all can see
With hearts too big to tame

Oh, time on earth
How fleeting still
For a year is as a day

Yet Olivia's Light
Will be our guide
So we can find our way

When we returned from vacation I had the pleasure of meeting a new friend. Unfortunately, she lost her 1 year old son 18 years ago but she was so helpful to talk with. She gave me hope that there will be happy days and joy in our lives again. We will never forget, there will always be someone missing in our family, but there is still reason to keep putting one foot in front of the other. I know that Lee and I will remain friends and I am glad to know I can call on her with questions and frustrations.

Looking at the picture above of my 2 guys on the beach I just feel the need to say that there is not another man on earth I could go through this with! We are a team. Of course it has been hard and we've had our ups and downs (and will continue to), but we are closer for it. As for Parrish, just having him close to me makes me feel better. His dimples and grin light up my world. I am so thankful that I have these wonderful "men" in my life!

I am also thankful for our Savior. I am thankful that He lets me be mad at him and scream out to Him in heaven for allowing this to happen to us. He doesn't care if I am praising Him or questioning Him...He still loves me. And as Cannon had to remind me today when I was really struggling...He is rocking our baby and caring for her until we can get to her in heaven. There aren't many places better for a baby than in their mother's arms, but I have a feeling being cuddled in Jesus arms is one of them.

“I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.”(Galatians 2:20 KJV)


  1. your boys are precious & the beach looks too good to be true! i'm so glad you've returned to your blog - its such a wonderful outlet of emotion! i have so enjoyed sharing our life w/ family & friends. you write so beautifully, the stories you've shared are so touching. i look forward to keeping up w/ your family! love you:)

  2. Hi Kristin,

    Thank you so much for getting in touch through my blog, I was just reading yours and I absolutely believe that Rip and Olivia have found each other in Heaven (I am sure she can teach him a thing or two, being the older woman!) We are keeping you in our prayers, I know exactly what you mean when you said that you feel Olivia in the sunset...there are times when I can just feel Rip's presence in a perfect moment. I look forward to the moment when we can hold them again (so so much), but I know there are many special moments left for us here on earth too. Would love to talk any time, my email is

    Much love,